Sunday, May 17, 2009
Circle Of Life
I have often wondered and asked myself this question - How would it be if the circle of life was to be turned around, and the end of our life was actually what we know as the beginning today. In simpler words - our life would actually end by us going back to our mother's womb. Just the visual of the security, warmth, love and care of that zone makes me want this so badly right now. Picture this - us going back to being babies who are a mere 25 centimeters long, sucking our thumbs, surrounded by all the TLC of the 'mother zone', when we die. Awesome, isn't it?
So let's explore, imagine and create a world like this for ourselves and be that person, who (for example sake), happens to be the only one to go through this 'reverse circle of life'. And before we proceed any further my dear reader, let's JUST be imaginative, and break out of the shackles of trying to 'LOGIFY' this deeply emotional and hopefully a wonderful thought.
Let's start by knowing that if you are a man you would be born at the age of 70 and women at the age of 80 (per a latest survey that i read online, that's the average life span for the respective genders). What we surely don't want to explore or imagine is this - 'how on earth could our parents have conceived us, with us being like this'. All we are focussing on is you, me & 'US' being born at at the age of 70/80. And to make this thought divine, let's also consider that we were like this gentle leaf floating all over mankind, till god assigned us to our respective parents, for us to be taken care of and brought up (maybe brought down in this case?).
Key things that stay a constant with this reversal - the joy of us coming into this world would still blossom (hopefully), our teeth would still be missing (most of them if not all) and we would need a lot of love and care at that age still (Ogden Nash rightfully calls the old age 'The second childhood' stage).
Let's brace ourselves now and get into this fancy world to imagine WHAT WOULD CHANGE. Fathom this - we would be born as people who would have had their own experiences in life (already). So the phrase 'Born Free' in that sense would not be applicable to us. If you are wondering why, let's pause and think. Take yourself to be where you are in your life emotionally right now. Are you as free spirited as you were, when you were born as a kid(in the normal circle of life)? Do you still do things you want to do, completely oblivious of the people and the environment around you? See what I am trying to say? But yes, the upside to this, with experience comes knowledge and with knowledge comes wisdom. So to summarize we would be be 'BORN WISE & SORT OF FREE' - doesn't sound that bad after all.
As we age or rather grow younger, following is what would happen - Instead of working towards building a career, we would start with one, instead of walking into kindergarten in our formative years, we would walk into a swanky cabin, instead of wearing the bubble gummers we normally walk around in, we would be sporting Prada's, instead of us being pampered by our parents with the 'Johnson & Johnson' cosmetics, we would garnish ourselves with the MACs and the BVLGARIS of the world, instead of wearing diapers, we would start by sporting the Calvin Kleins and the Victoria's Secret, & for the majority population that is sexually 'normal', we would not be born as virgins!!! - Crazy isn't it?
In a nutshell, we would be born with everything we desire to have (in our current lifecyle). Things that we would die for today (by the end of our lives in the current cycle), are things that we would be born with and die without, if the clock were to turn. Which if you were to think of is one of the most amazing things to happen - let me show you how.
Go back in time and replay the following - the first 6 months of the relationship that you are in right now, the first 30 days of your first job, the first drive / ride you took all by yourself when you learnt to do it, the first time you 'made love' to the one you love / loved - sweet,cherished, fond and happy memories, right? The commonness in all of this is 'FIRST' - a word that signifies inception, freshness, a new beginning, a new start. Now link this to what you were reading earlier and think - you would by the end of your life, actually come closer and go back to the 'start point' of life. The finish line of your 100 m race would be the line where you now take guard. And yes, you won't cover this running it down like a bullet train. You would crawl, pause, notice a few things (maybe a lot), and then reach the end point. You will for sure take more time, and for sure, you would enjoy it more. And by the time you finish this race, complete it and win it, u wont be the 'BIG GUY' (phrase, nothing to do with gender). You would have turned into this 25 centimeter long person that we earlier spoke about, and as against the usher standing at the end of the line with the flag, you would go back into the womb that you come from today, with your mother waiting their with all her love for you. Wow, what a way to end life - perfect!!
Zooming back into reality (as I 'sort of' lye on my bean bag), I can't help but connect to the feeling / reason that triggered this thought in me. I am for sure a young, successful, richer, maybe a good looking guy too. Nothing can take away from the fact that I am happy with how my life is as well. But you know, with all of this, what I have also become is conditioned, opinionated, suspicious, wary and in that sense closed. You see, while I was 'Born Free' I wonder if I would 'LIVE & DIE FREE' too (in a true sense). So what makes me want to reverse the 'CIRCLE OF LIFE' is the desire to be FREE again. Freedom from my conditioned mind, the conditioned people & the opinionated world. Funny how I want to go back to start point, when with each passing day I know, we all come closer the end.
Knowing very well that this so can't happen, what am i going to do? Well, you must have figured by now, that like all of you, I was born free too. And the only for me to 'DIE FREE' and make the most of me being 'BORN FREE' is to 'LIVE FREE'. So while the circle of life may not turn the other way, the drift surely will.